A fleeting insight can linger in image form in my mind, like a bright light leaves a trace on the retina, and I try to record this image in my notebook before it disappears. In my notebook I construct a composition using the ideas, then with a grid method, I expand this and use oil paints to enhance it with color. I find making art helps me to capture these insights and the time it takes for the art to be made gives me time to understand what they mean.
Like Rilke said in the following quote, sometimes solutions come in time and making art can help me to stand back in moments of confusion.
“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”